There's a saying, "Time changes everything." I was always the person who believed that time doesn't really change people. But in the last two years, knowingly or unknowingly, I've changed. Like, a lot. I've changed the way I talk to people, the way I work, the way I eat, the way I sleep.
Am I happy about it? I'm not sure. But what influences that change?
At first glance, it's time. I thought the same thing. But if time can change a person, why does it change the good stuff? Why not focus on the bad stuff? Clearly, it's not time. Time just runs linearly; it doesn't consider any other factors.
In the quote itself, we focus on time, but the quote is really all about change. Time is a factor for change, but change is not only about time.
There's another factor as well: people. I'm not sure if they're the main factor, but they are a major one. The people we meet, the people we interact with, the people we study with, the people we work with, the people we make friends with, the people we fall in love with.
There could be so many other factors, but the thing I've learned about change in these last two years, be it good or bad, is that the influence of people has a huge effect.
I've changed a lot. The way I eat, sleep, work, the way I do everything is changed, not because of time but simply because of the influence of people.
I've always thought, what if we had a version control system for our life, so that we could just rollback to the last stable version? Life would be good right?
But life doesn't operate that way. Every decision, every word spoken, every path chosen is an instant irreversible commit that's directly pushed to our timeline. We're forced to live in it, in uneditable history of our own existence.
I was so immersed in the way the change dragged me to. Not until someone pointed out, I never realized that it's not only affecting my mental health, but also my physical health.
I don't wish to rollback anymore. People changed, life altered, change happened. But it's just temporary. We cannot undo the change but we can change the change. And that's what I intend to do. I'm not sure how long it is going to take me to draft a commit that overcomes all the fears I had or having in these 2 years. But I hope I'll eventually get there.
If you're still reading this, happy friendship day mi amigo. I know it's late, but I love to be late in a certain things.
Here's to change 🥂